Faith vs. Fear
Growing up it seemed a lot of my choices came about because of lack of confidence; choosing not to do something out of fear of the unknown, fear of change, fear of getting caught, fear of what others may think. It was only as I matured spiritually that the how and whys of my choices changed. If you are a good parent (like mine were) you teach your children to choose the Best Way. Each time you choose the Best Way it becomes easier and easier; you see the results of God’s way (faith, confidence, trust, love) versus the world’s way (fear, insecurity, doubt.)
This year I was put to the ultimate test of all. Choice: Faith vs. Fear – have I grown enough to have faith (trust in, rely on, cling to) in the God I had believed in and devoted my life to – like Abraham, could I give up the life of a loved one to let go and let God do what he does best; no matter the outcome? All my religious training and beliefs were under the microscope. Faith or Fear. Do I rely on man and machine (no matter how educated and well-meaning) or do I choose the Great Physician and His perfect will? How could I not choose what I had been taught my whole life? When you take that first step of decision – it is perfect – doubtless of outcome, fearless of change, confident in the great I Am.
God blessed that decision, gave us what we asked for and then some. Miracle Mama, as we now call her, celebrated Christmas and is relaxing at home. M.M. uses a walker now but is really walking by faith not by sight. She may not remember some of the step-by-step processes of daily life and she may only have a whisper voice now, but she remembers to say “I love you.” She remembers to laugh at our bad jokes and she remembers to ask about her sister’s health. She remembers each day as she tells us, “She raised us right”.
It took 14 doctors who were seeing “through the glass darkly” but not quite seeing, yet, M.M. has improved sight – both physically and spiritually. She has remembered, “To have a friend – be one”. M.M. celebrates the wonder of each new day, and chooses to give God all the praise and glory…And that’s the Best Choice!
Faith or Fear – chose the Best Choice. We, her family, as a result are choosing to accept each additional day as a gift from God while remembering every good and perfect gift comes from above.
